10-8-2016

A TOXIC BEGINNING

I was terrified but fearless at the same time. I have always been a paradox when it comes to the extremities of my ways; but I persevere. The many dreams I have performing on stage as a little girl and as an adult will come into fruition if I have any say about it. I’ve spent years wallowing in my sadness, regarding the unfortunate circumstances of my life. My family did a phenomenal job at shielding me from the direct emotional effects one should experience when growing up with a traditional family structure but I’ve always craved the feeling of success. I’ve always craved the desire of wanting more for myself. I knew whatever I put my mind to I would excel at but the only thing that brought pure joy to my heart was and still is music. All the many ideas and performance extravaganzas I have inside my creatively genius mind is ripping at the seams desperate to climb free and show the world all of its chaotic beauty.

So I challenged myself and I began a journey unlike no other in 2016 beginning with a simple shoot I asked my sister to take for me due to lack of startup funds and support. These videos and images represent the day I decided I could no longer live on this planet without creating. It’s the only time I feel close to God, close to the universe….close to myself—the Aaliyah Nicole.

I remember I was going for a vintage retro vibe for the first shoot and a Yeezy SZN 2 vibe meets Erykah Badu for the second shoot. I wanted my art to feel aesthetically appealing and uplifting. However, I remember when I officially posted these images online, my father and sister felt I needed to level up the quality and I, in return, agreed. I wanted when someone looked at my profile they could assume I was backed by a label or a serious entity. I’ve always strived for quality over quantity and that will never change, yet I felt it was right to document my journey in some fashion. Thus, my blog was created where I will share a synopsis of my journey from each leg.

This shoot was meant to be the roll out content for the first cover I recorded after the shit show of a musical beginining I ventured on when I was 16; however, that will be a story for another time. Britney Spears has always been a huge idol for me, alongside my fairy godmother Queen Bey. So it was only right that I dedicate my first musical piece to her since she is truly the one the jumpstarted my love for the performing arts. I sang I a beautiful rendition of her timeless hit “Toxic” and gave it a sexy sultry vibe I intend to include in all of my future tours as a way to say “Thank You” for all that she contributed to society and to me. I watched the “Toxic” video in awe as little girl over and over hoping that one day I can be the person on the TV screen spreading joy through the dope sounds I create.

Click on the image to listen to my rendition of “Toxic” by Britney Spears.

All in all, I am a human that only wants to live this life if I can create my hearts desires and be the supreme version of myself. I know my name carries a weight like no other but I intend to fill no one’s shoes but my own and create a mark that’ll leave burn marks on the pavement from the fire I intend to bring.

XOXO

Aaliyah Nicole